Projecting

Well, it took a month and a half, but I've finally had the chance to start putting my LA trip yarn to use. It's about time something good came of my trip down there, so I'm really excited to see these socks reach completion. The picture isn't the greatest, but it's a fun sock, beautiful yarn, fun pattern and quick knit... one week so far.

I have a few other projects I've been working on since my LA trip, but I had to post pictures of this one because it is a bit of a monumental project. Several years ago my mom received a sock knitting book as a gift from Jeanine. I was still knitting my first few projects and very much in the novice stages of knitting, but I saw the sock book and decided then and there that I was going to someday knit a pair of socks from that book.... though I had yet to dare try a sock. Several years and three pairs of socks later, I have finally pulled the book out and ventured to try a pattern! Had I known how easy they were, I would have tried earlier! Thanks Jeanine for providing me with the pattern for my fourth pair of socks!

I guess I should also thank Dr. LA for providing me with an excuse to visit LA and thus purchase this amazing yarn...

Torn

I guess I've been MIA for a while now, and it's time to post... for any of you that are still diligent in checking this... few though I know you are. I could blame it on the new job... working full time, commuting 90 miles round trip every day, secretly working extra hours off the clock in hopes that I might be able to appease The Boss. I could say I have a slow, boring life, and that nothing worth blogging about has occurred in the last few weeks (probably partially true, my life IS pretty boring), but in truth, I've been meaning to blog. I've had several rudimentary thoughts that have made it as far as the drafts section of blogger, but none of my thoughts seem to be progressing past the half formed stage lately. I guess the nature of my thoughts fall right in line with where my life seems to be lately... so will deciding on a path in life help settle my thoughts or vice versa... settled thoughts helping to settle my life. I'm sure that to some extent the two will coincide, I'm just not sure how it is to be done.

Sometimes I wish that wants, needs, and desires could more completely coincide with each other. Before I left to Virginia, I was pretty confidant what I would be doing when I returned... God has a way of messing with my plans though, and I seem to be back to the planning stage. Now though, I have all the old options, but I seem to have whole new sets of options available to me... the problem is that I seem to be insistent on making a custom order. I'd like this section of option A, but then I'd like this particular perk of option B, and this of option C. None of which really seem to come together in any of my options. Now I'm just left with too many things I want to do, too many choices and a massive amount of confusion as to what to do with it all. California? Utah? Oregon? School? Work? Family ward? Subject myself to a singles ward? Inspiration please? Dear God, just a reminder, I'm still wandering around like a lost sheep. Baaah!! I guess I still haven't learned how to be patient yet. After almost five months of living at home (something I have not done in quite some time), I'm ready to move forward in some manner.

Despite waiting and trying to figure out what I want to do with my life from here, I am content and happy. It's a strange combination, and one I'm not completely sure how to describe because in many ways I am definitely not content or happy... is it really possible to be content and yet in turmoil at the same time? Content in turmoil? Regardless, that seems to be where I sit. There are so many things about my life right now that I am absolutely in love with. Love my calling, love my session at the temple friday nights ( I know almost all the friday night temple workers). I have a job that is teaching me a lot, I have a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and I know that someday I'll be able to look back on my experiences now and see all the things that I was able to learn from them. Things will work out! But... until then if anyone has any suggestions... more options to lay on the table, I'm open to just about anything!